Social media star Arzaylea Rodriguez continued to mourn her boyfriend, rapper Lil Peep, after he died from a suspected Xanax overdose on Wednesday, according to the Associated Press. He was 21 years old. Hours before he was found dead in his tour bus in Arizona, Peep posted a video of himself dropping Xanax into his mouth. Fans dubbed it the "death video."
Rodriguez was heartbroken over Peep's tragic death. "I love you monkey. I feel you here. You are in everything. I just wanna be with you again," she wrote on Thursday. "Nothing will ever be the same. I will never be the same. I'm trying everything to be strong for you but it's so hard I don't wanna be here without you. The pain is heavy in my soul. You are heavy in my soul." She disabled comments on the post, which garnered nearly 200,000 likes.
Peep, whose real name was Gustav Ahr, was slated to perform in Tucson the day before he died. While police said it was likely he died from an overdose, an official cause of death was not announced. It could take up to eight weeks for the toxicology report to come back from the medical examiner.
Hours before he died, Peep posted disturbing Instagram videos and pictures that showed him abusing drugs. He placed pills on his tongue in one photo and dropped them into his mouth in a video. "When I die you'll love me," he wrote in one message.
In another, he detailed his struggle with mental health and drug addiction. "I just wana be everybody's everything I want too much from people but then I don't want anything from them at the same time u feel me I don't let people help me but I need help but not when I have my pills but that's temporary one day maybe I won't die young and I'll be happy? What is happy I always have happiness for like 10 seconds and then it's gone," he wrote. "I'm getting so tired of this."
Rodriguez didn't address Peep's addiction in her posts.
"I can't believe I'm writing this. You're in my heart. I'm always yours. I don't have words to express what you've done for me in such little time," she wrote. "I love you so much. You live forever in me. I don't know how to do any of this without you now...I love you so much I want to wake up from this nightmare."
Uncommon Knowledge
Newsweek is committed to challenging conventional wisdom and finding connections in the search for common ground.
Newsweek is committed to challenging conventional wisdom and finding connections in the search for common ground.
About the writer
Maria Vultaggio is a Brooklynite originally hailing from Long Island. She studied English at Stony Brook University and interned at the ... Read more
To read how Newsweek uses AI as a newsroom tool, Click here.
